Weekend Update - 2/3/17

There are those moments when I just want to stop. I want to run away and just be at peace and/or happy. During these times, after talking with folks, I am reminded I do not know the future. I do know that “ongoing change” is in my future and for someone like me, who does not like change, it is important for me to live as much as possible in the moment. It is also important for me to be as mature and responsible as I can when making decisions. Fear is not a good base to make decisions from. I read a book many years ago entitled “Necessary Losses”. I am reminded of the losses I have endured must endure in the future. Some of these losses were and will be necessary and some have been and will be due to circumstance. Regardless, all will occur. How I live with the losses to come is what I am focused on in the here and now. I know I must fully vet any decisions I make and I know the responsibility for those decisions rests solely on me. So my projects in the coming months will be to fully discuss with friends/family all of my options and the implications of each of those options. I will also be spending some quiet time with myself and my pen and paper as I ponder all of my options. Time marches on as do the bills. Some good news…I am down to just four (4) doctors and blood work is looking good. Some tests/scans in the future but things are looking good now. Thank you to all who continue to share my journey. And the old saying is true. Once a social worker, always a social worker. Volunteering to assist other cancer patients and it feels so good. I am asking all to please share my story once again emphasizing that no amount is too small and that $10.00 - $20.00 is better than $0 dollars. I so look forward to the day when I do not need to ask for financial assistance. This continues to be so much more of a humbling experience. A continuing big “THANK YOU” to all who have and continue to share their experience, strength, hope, time and resources. Your time and gifts are, as always, greatly appreciated and still needed. For the big picture please read my blog from the beginning. ***Please note that the 12/14/16 post in my blog is one which I encourage you to share freely.*** Please read and share my story. www.gofundme.com/j55wek