Weekend Update - 3/18/16

Sometimes life just goes on. Sometimes life goes on whether I want it to or not. Sometimes it takes a great deal of perseverance just to make it through a day. The question of “why” rings in my head and I am not even sure of why “why”. I am tired and do need to stop and look for and smell some damn roses. I am very frustrated with my body and the limits I am having to adhere to. I am frustrated at being “responsible” and “doing the next right thing”. Of course I do deeply realize that to not be “responsible” and to not “do the next right thing” would be catastrophic to my physical, mental, and spiritual self as well as being economically suicidal. In short, this week sometimes I have felt like a nut and sometimes I have not. And at this time, before I say something completely wacked, It is time for me to end this week’s musings. This has been a very “being a human being” week for me. So, …. I will keep breathing in and out and continue to do my best to show up for and be the best human being I can be for the people in my life. I am once again well aware of just how fortunate I am to have the human beings I have in my life. The bills keep coming …. and I keep laughing to keep from crying. And it will be back to the hospital I go in a little over a week. Emory keeps a light on for me. Once again … in closing, the reality of my financial situation continues to be what it is…. not good. I am asking all to give what you can and to remember that no amount is to small. Every little bit helps. I am living month to month, and without the support I have received I would not still be living in my home. It is still amazing to me how much all of my treatments are costing. A big “THANK YOU” to all who have shared their experience, strength, hope, time and resources. Your time and gifts are, as always, greatly appreciated and needed. ***Please note that the 12/3/15 post in my blog is one which I encourage you to share freely.*** Please read and share my story. www.gofundme.com/j55wek